Green Eyed Monster - Get thee Hence!

So it has been a month since my last post and to be honest, it doesn't feel like it has been that long. I have kind of dreaded coming back here to write and mull over what I am doing right and wrong. So I am forgetting about all that and just going to focus on the fact that it is a New Year. This past week has been quite rough I have a sick 4 month old and a sick 2 year old - both demanding my full attention. I had to take the baby into the doctor's office yesterday and we were there for 2 hours with no conclusive things to do about his illness except to "wait it out" and give him a little tylenol to sooth the fever. He has bronchiolitis - which is inflamed branches of the lungs (as opposed to bronchitis which is the inflamation of the larger airways in the lungs). It is no fun. He has been snotty and coughing and throwing up. My 2 year old must have had the same thing only days earlier, but we just thought it was a random cold. He is finally getting over it so I have some hope that the baby will do better soon.

It has also been rough because everyone I know is going on vacation. Except us! As I type this my mom is in beautiful L.A. or Disneyland or somewhere out there, and our renters just went to L.A. My husband's cousin is in Hawaii - I think you probably get the point. My jealousy is so strong right now! I have decided I have a hard time being happy for people who get to do cool things - especially when they have done nothing to deserve it. Now, the people I just mentioned deserved to go on vacation - everyone does - but I must say I have seen some people from my past who have done nothing special to get their lives of luxury and it makes me sick. I am a green envious monster and am not able to be happy for others! Even my husband - when he goes and has a guys night or goes fishing, I am pretty sure I make him "pay" for it by trying to make him as guilty as possible for leaving me with 2 kids like he does every day. Does he not deserve to have some free time? Why of course he does.

So here is one of my pledges for this new year - to not be a Green Eyed Monster. Just to be happy for those who have awesome adventures, good times, great vacations, and free luxuries - and not dwell on it! I have an awesome life with 2 adorable boys and a hottie husband. I live in a warm home and have all the needs I could ask for. Sure I would like to lose weight a little easier, and sure I would love to have the cars paid off and some new clothes in my closet. But it ain't happenin! And it isn't going to for some time. Enjoy the time now and be happy for those that may have more than me. There are plenty more that don't and I need to be grateful. So long green eyed monster. It's been nice knowing you.